Am I Conceited or Confused?

OK, so, I have the strangest obsession with make-up. I like to test all kinds of different styles on myself. And then I take pictures, and post them up. Now, does this make me conceited? I would say not. But, why do I feel the need to experiment anyway? Maybe it's my creativity, or maybe it is something else. Some like a latent need for approval of my appearance. Maybe that is why I post the pictures. I am in search of approval. 









Maybe that is why so many girls post so many pictures of themselves. It isn't that they enjoy to look at themselves (although in some cases that might be true), they just want people to tell them that they are beautiful. And I don't blame them!! All girls hear today is that they aren't good enough. In fact that was all I got when I was in middle school. I was told I was practically a troll. And I believed them, so mabe I post these pictures to prove them wrong?

I'm not really sure why I cared about what they thought though....I guess, in the end, I just wanted to be accepted? To finally be acknowledged as some one pretty?

  I looked into everything, from lotion to hairspray. But what says that lotion makes us pretty? What says that styled hair is pretty? I want to be able to go outside like this (see below) and not have anyone look down on me cause I didn't try today.

But no. Because the world tells me this isn't acceptable, I more often than not feel that I have to actually try whenever I go out. Although...I am less and less feeling the need to do this. I still like to experiment with make up. But I don't feel like I have to. But I still like to dress up every now and again, just for the sake of dressing up even if I am not going any where. So am I conceited or confused? I have no idea!! xD

(Yes, I like red lipstick, in case you couldn't tell)

Making a Blog?

I would have to say that making and maintaining a blog is not as difficult as I thought it would be. I was expecting it to be very complicated and confusing. (Which doesn't make sense coming from me since I am familiar with more complicated computer stuff...but anyway!) It was actually quite simple and easy to follow. We sort of walked through it in class, but I didn't save it correctly and I had to start over later without the help of my classmates. But it was easy! It was like 1 2 3! I opened my account, and right there it said blogger--create blog. I gave it a name and BAM!! I had a blog. Customizing was simple, so I created a blog that featured something I like. And now, I have a blog where I can voice my opinion whenever I want. Or if I have some steam to blow off, it's good for that too. xD

Into the Wild???

OK, first of all, who goes gallivanting off into the "great unknown" completely unprepared? Apparently Chris McCandless does, cause as I keep reading this book, the more idiotic he appears to me. I mean, he did no research and was therefore completely under prepared. I understand  the draw towards nature, but I would never go off on my own adventure with training and researching.
Second of all? Who abandons everyone they care about to go out on some half-baked idea? This is the part I can't understand, no matter how hard I think about it. He throws away all his relationships and his chance at a future without explaining anything to any of the people. Did he not think about how this would crush so many people? I know there are people out there that think that the world would never miss them, or that they don't matter enough to people. But, let me tell you, they couldn't be more wrong. I can speak from experience about this one. I used to think those very thoughts, and then I got a major smack to the face when people started to refer to me as their best friends or their goofy nerd. Or even more shocking, when i get a call from a guy in my class confessing his love for me. No one thinks about these things when they make these choices. And you know what? It brings one specific quote to mind. I don't remember who said it, but it goes, "You never know what you've got, until it's gone." And those words could never be more true. I might even goes as far to say that that might sum up a lot of Chris's life after his big choice. I know there are people who will disagree with me, but oh well!! This is my blog not yours!! And this is how I feel about the novel "Into the Wild."